Well, I just arrived today. I’ve been doing some looking around and figured I would go ahead and introduce myself.
I am a Safety Manager for a mine. I’ve been in the mining industry since I left the Army. I enjoy my job and what I do.
I am not new to online communities, but I have been away for a long time. When I got into this, I joined Colescere. It was a great community, but eventually fell apart. From there, I was a founder of “The Jedi Way” and “The order of Baran Do”. My absence from the online community forced those sites to go to pot and there are only ruins left. I still have a facebook group, but I rarely do anything with it.
So, I needed to leave those communities because I needed to find a path that felt right to me. I went down some very dark paths. I will just be very honest with you all, so please bare with me. I tend to ramble on once I get going. I abandoned my friends, and turned inward. I pulled away from my family and pushed everyone away.
I felt that I could do this journey alone. I’m old enough that I should have known that I was being foolish. 35 by the way. I pushed my wife away to the point that she left. I was completely and utterly alone. I needed to find my path. I was lost. These dark paths sent me into a downward spiral of depression and loathing…
After an… incident my wife came back, with the kids. She was a beacon of light that I thought was extinguished. A solid foundation that I had to re-learn to use to find my footing. The Jedi Training that I’ve received and taught others was all but forgotten. I had to start over, both on my personal journey and with my family.
I decided that it would be best for all of us, if we moved and started over somewhere else. So, I got back on the speeder, and found a job 1500 miles away. I moved my family and we have started over.
For a while now I’ve been contemplating finding a new community to start over. So, I started searching. Most of the places that existed years ago have all but vanished. Those that still remain aren’t really what I’m looking for. I know longer follow the Jedi way. I am on my on path now, I walk the line between light and dark. I have found balance.
Anyway… I’ve definitely shared more than I should have, but I’m too damn lazy to go back and delete it all. Besides I put in the effort to type it up, I might as well keep it there.
I’m looking forward to my journey here, and through the Brotherhood. I am ambitious, tenacious and not content with being a novice. I will do whatever I need to, to move up through the ranks.